Mom Fail

 Ugh... today started out so lovely! Dan and I had the best ride and it was such a joyous day! And then I got news of a friends death. And obviously, it upset me. But I thought I was still okay to ride. And maybe it had nothing to do with it. Maybe Lyric does not like the WoW girth... maybe she was just in a mood... but it was not a good ride. 

She was fine getting tacked up and I even got on at the trailer and rode her up Jeans driveway to the arena. We even stopped to talk to Mike and some guy who showed up to ask about yardwork at the road and she was chill. She was pretty laid back although going up Jean's driveway she got a little balky. And then she was squirrely at the gate. And I got annoyed, because.. it's a gate.. the same gate we do everytime. And while it's not her fault that gate doesn't like to swing open very well and it's hard to push it open while holding her and not losing my position... you would think by now it wouldn't be such a big deal. Except it is. Maybe because I get annoyed that it still is...everytime. Sigh. So we got in finally and did some walking and she was pretty good. But as soon as we trotted she was like a firecracker. Inverted and bracing and chompy and running. She dropped a hip multiple times and a few of them so much that I had to change my diagonal back. And when I asked her to half halt... she got faster. When I asked her to bend, she got faster. Sigh... We were just fighting and I could feel myself getting very frustrated. So I just got off and lunged her a bit. And she went right to relaxed mode and even got into a little bit of a stretch both ways. So then I got back on. And she was still hot. We finally got the slightest bit of improvement and then she fell out of her left hind shoe. Sigh.. It just... came right off. Argh!! This is not my ride. So I picked the trot back up and she wasn't lame so I did two circles each way and got some semi-decent work (in that she maintained a tempo even if it was a hair fast and didn't completely fall in and kept the circle) so I quit with that and got off. 

Argh... and I just paid for the show. And Sara is coming Tuesday, but... the show is Sunday. Sigh.. oh well. Freakin' horses. And I'm upset because of my friend... and then, selfishly, I'm upset because my wonderful 5 day weekend of glorious weather and riding has now been halved because of the shoe.. and my day isn't going well... and I wanted to show... and then I felt awful for being so selfish and so self-centered. And then I got sad because... life goes on. Life just keeps on going and while it's good in ways.. it just hit me as super sad. And I'm also feeling bad for not being a good mom and making Lyric more stressed and nervous. Sigh. yeah....



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